An Ode To Someone Special.
There's alot I want to say, and to be honest, I have absolutely no idea how to. I used to be able to say alot, and say it how I wanted to, but I'm out of practice. And that's annoying, because I really want this to go how I want it to, and come out the right way. I love you. This didn't go exactly how it went in my head, but it's okay, I can always add to it.
Before, I used to think that I'd go through life alone, so I didn't really think it mattered what happened to myself or what I did with my life. I didn't see the point, so I just stopped caring really. I couldn't see much of a point.
To be honest, for a long time there was only one thing I wanted out of life, and I never thought I'd ever be able to have it.
At the end of last year, I was thinking about how the past eighteen had been, and wondering whether this one would be any different, whether anything would happen to make this year worthwhile.
And then at the beginning of this year, I got exactly what I wanted. And for a little while I found it hard to believe.
And then February came, and when we were first together I realized why I'd lasted that long.
Now I'm having trouble explaining this, but here goes: I never believed much in fate or anything, and for all intent and purpose I still don't, I think you make your own fate and stuff. But in this case, I don't. I truly believe we were meant to be together, and I honestly think that without you, I would die.
Because you give me purpose. You give me a reason to be that little bit more careful when crossing the road. And no matter how selfish I can be/ am, you always come first. You're the only thing that matters to me, and nothing will change that.
I've had a headache for about six or seven years basically non-stop (I shit you not), but when we're together, it doesn't hurt. Nothing hurts. Everything's perfect, and I feel calm, and peaceful, and happy.
I'll never be able to thank you enough for all you've done for me, but I want you to know how much it all means to me.
Thank you Kayleigh.
I love waking up and seeing you next to me, curled up close and sleeping.
I love holding you.
I love touching you in any way, from stroking your hand with my finger to kissing you.
I love listening to you.
I love your voice.
I love when you smile.
I love it when you're "immature".
I love it when you're serious.
I love it when you're "lame".
I love how you laugh when people on the radio mention boiling babies.
I love looking into your eyes.
I love how you make me feel.
I love how you're warm, and soft, and gentle.
I love how nothing else comes anywhere near mattering.
I love your sense of humour.
I love how you like cool stuff.
I love who you are.
I love watching you.
I love that you're sweet.
I love it when you're playful.
I love everytime we walk by a mirror, or a reflection. Because we look so right together.
I love all the little things, like how you agree that Demolition Man rocks, and how you were talking about westerns on thursday, and how you agree Sonic pwns.
I love how you share things.
I love how everything comes so naturally with you.
I love how you're everything to me, how you're my best friend and my lover.
I love looking after you, and protecting you.
I love how, no matter what happens in life, as long as we're together I know I'll be happy.
I love how being with you is even better than a dream.
I love how truly special you are.
I love it when we play games.
I love how you're mine.
I love that we traded shirts.
I love how you're always in my thoughts, and how comforting that is.
I love how perfect you are.
I love how I don't feel stupid when I talk to you about stupid stuff, like how cool Prison Break or The Smashing Pumpkins are.
I love how, even though we say we're being "lame", it doesn't feel lame, at all.
I love stroking your cheek.
I love moving your hair out of your face.
I love it when you sit on my lap whilst making tea.
I love how you don't let go even if you're just moving to the other side of the room.
I love lying in the grass with you.
I love how you let me curl up in your arms and sleep.
I love how I feel comfortable enough to do so.
I love how a ten minute walk takes half an hour because we keep getting distracted by each other.
I love how for the first time in my life I'm truly happy.
I love how you say we'll be together forever, and I believe you.
I love how when you plan for the future, I'm part of those plans.
I love how my plans for the future consist entirely of you.
I love how you don't mind when I'm quiet.
I love how you ask me things.
I love when you hold me tighter.
I love holding your hand.
I love how every little thing about you amazes me.
I love how you care, instead of just saying you do.
I love how you make me feel complete.
I love how you make me feel like I matter.
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